As I sit here reflecting after an extremely long day, I can’t help but wonder how this day was for you. Do you miss us the way we miss you? Mom said she had a good day. I was SO grateful to hear her say that! Everything I did today, you were there, I could feel it in the tears I cried at lunch, in the early morning conversation at the dentist this morning, I could feel it in the fellowship at the neighborhood meetings I had tonight- I could feel you, ever the mediator, the servant-leader, husband and towering prison warden, Elder of your church there FOR me. By far, my favorite role you had was “Pops” and my goodness do we miss you. It’s unreal how caught up in the day to day pettiness I can get, how I get all wrapped up in things that in a year, won’t matter. I was yanked out of that stupor on Sunday morning driving to church. God always shows up when I need him to, don’t you agree? I was listening to “This is Crowder” on my Spotify radio and while I know you don’t know what that is, the point is that it made me think of you and how even after only two years gone, how dangerously close I was to letting your day pass me by. I am eternally grateful for a loving and forgiving God- even though I still yell at him at times bc you’re not here- he can take it- he’s a big guy and my qualms with him, while not insignificant, are never too big for him to handle or too small for Him to teach me a lesson. All this rambling to say “Pops, we love you and miss you and we will NEVER forget you.”
Much love,
Elyse
Hugs my friend.
It is so hard some days. I just looked up to him so much. I miss him so!